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Artistopia Rank : 3
Member Since : 12/2004
Last Login : 2/10/2012
Views : 154,176
Songs : 108
Events : 14
Alliances : 134
Releases : 62
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CHART MAKERS
Published Date : 12/2009
Total Downloads : 409
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I am Going through the Process of Mental Rehabilitation. |
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| Published on 11/14/2008 |
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| By This Guy Hurts |
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I have realized this Rainsweep idea is possibly a little far fetched and that I may be using this concept as a shield or barrier from actually dealing with real life. I have come to the conclusion that this self adventure has come to a crossroads where I may have misrepresented myself and may have confused some of the individuals, who may also be readers, of the real life situation.
I sincerely apologize to those I've offended and may have mislead into believing a more extreme situation in regards to the advancement of attraction/love and the supposed state of my mental capacity. Though I believe I am in balance, Others may see Otherwise.
I recently had a mental breakdown in regards to a "Girl Who Said Destiny". I... To this day still do not comprehend the definition of this remark, though destiny means fortune. I would like to say Thank You for giving me the "Greatest Pick Up Line I've Ever Heard" and would like to say thank you for Changing My World. I've had trouble dealing with it, knowing full well the consequences and seriousness of advancing on this concept. I would appreciate reassurance of the feelings that I felt for you were/are true and maybe, possibly even reciprocated. (I don't know.) However, I know that in this present time I can not act upon these feelings. I did however feel a sense of admiration, maybe even adoration. And that... I am Grateful for the strength you showed and the power to overcome adversity
I hear you "Girl who said Destiny" and I would like to Congratulate you on your progress. I don't know your full background, but I do know that you do Wonderful Things. Continue to Do So. And maybe one day that Destiny will be realized. It comes out like this because I've thought many a times of you and how you are. Too much so that I lose Myself and have. That is why I write this here now to correct what some may think and delusions that may have risen from concerned adults. "Be Proud of Who You Are."
I can not believe yet again I walk in these shoes of being passively accused. But these thoughts do travel through air. I can feel them. I deal with it daily. I do not want your pity or sympathy and as strangers do... Suspicion is always the first thought unless the view is attractive/appealing or easily identifiable. I have found that throughout my life that I can be misinterpreted. Maybe that explains why I am here. My Interpersonal Relational Skills are Horrendous.
I'm just going with the flow and realizing that I am atleast identifying with myself. Then again my track record is not the most chronologically complete piece of my existence. I need friends and real individuals to establish myself. I need to Get Real. I'm getting the help that I need. And I seriously need to adjust, focus and concentrate my presentation. I need to get Professionalized and an Agent.
I need to Get Real. I need to Deliver.
Destiny? That is the Question.
Five Years is Coming Up. What will it Be?
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RAINSWEEP MAY BE SIGNING OFF FOR AWHILE JUST TO GET SOME SPACE IN BETWEEN THE REALITY AND MUSICAL DIARY OF THIS PLACE. AT THIS TIME IN MY LIFE, THIS PROFILE, I FEEL NO LONGER CAN SERVE IT'S INTENDED PURPOSE. I MYSELF CAN NOT BELIEVE THAT I HAVE ALLOWED MYSELF TO BECOME SO ENGROSSED AND INDIRECTLY SELF DEPICTED THROUGH THIS PROFILE. WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING? OF COURSE THIS FOR THE MOST PART IS DRIVEN AND CREATED FROM THE MIND. I HAVE HEARD AND CAN SEE WHERE PEOPLE'S NEGATIVE REMARKS ARE COMING FROM. SOME OF THE MATERIAL IN THIS PROFILE DID NOT OFFEND OR CONJURE UP SUCH IDEAS AT THE TIME OF CREATION. IT CONCERNS ME AT TIMES AT HOW FAR IT TRIES TO REACH. I NEED TO GO WITH WHAT IS IN FRONT OF ME FIRST.
Thanks for Listening.
I have Lost and Hurt Myself Again. My Brain is Telling Me So.
I Wish I had a Real Family Upbringing. I Wish I could Remember what Normal People do. I Wish I knew who I was instead of relying on this music idea to bail me out. I Wish I had a Clue.
I think I am just Hurting because I am Realizing Who I am. I'll be stepping up to the Mic this weekend to establish what will really be.
"My Mind is Swirling. |
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